rain

there's a kind of feeling that i get when it rains. it's nearly indescribable. irregardless, i could try. i think i end up feeling like i'm some kind of intruder. i'm not a part of this world anymore. i start to feel like i never woke up, like i'm still in a dream. i'm not a real person anymore. i feel like all of my life has slipped away, and i got left behind in a state in between consciousness and nothingness. i feel like i'm entirely alone, wandering in a state between life and death. nothing around me is tangible anymore. then, i wonder if it ever was. it's as if the rain was pouring down on my own senses, washing them away with each heavy drop of water. they trickled down and disappeared into the world that i could not feel. i'm still here, though.

stay good.