you do not exist forever

hi...  Sorry for not posting yesterday, I got caught up with school work and everything.  But anyways, I am bored, and I wrote a song the other day for my friend.  I am not going to post it, because it's cringy, but I thought you would like to know that I guess.  I wish I could sing, because I swear I sound like a dying chicken.  Anyway it's a duet with her but now since COVID-19 hit, I haven't been able to see her which sucks since she's my best friend (see my other post if you want to hear more on that topic).  So I am in school on my break now and I am starving and tired.  I had chugged a cup of coffee this morning but it had no effect.  So anyway I am very bored and I do not feel like writing this right now, so I will post it and write more later.  Procrastination be like...  Also if you people want to hear about zodiac signs and my opinion on astrology, comment below!!  Thanks for all of your support if you even read this....

hi, it's me... again.  Well it's February 3rd now, and I am chilling here, writing a blog.  You know, I don't really know why I write these blogs, I guess it is just something I do for fun, to kind of distract me from the rest of life, and I know my blog is literally titled: so... what is life?  But if I were to answer that, I'd need a lot more time than five minutes in between my online classes.  I do not really have a topic for this post yet, so I am going to take this time to ramble.  About whatever I am feeling.  I just listened to some Spanish music, and I'm still learning to speak it, it's a fun language, though.  Maybe I'll try to practice writing some, and if I get things wrong, please do not come for me it's only my second year learning this, heh.  So...   ¡Hola!  ¿Como estan hoy?  Estoy cansada, pero tambien yo soy contenta.  Solo hablo un poco de espanol, lo siento, yo soy mal.  Anyways I am going to stop t...

you see, I've been posting a lot about the pandemic, school, how it is affecting us etc.  But I want to post about more.  Any suggestions are completely welcome, and please feel free to post them in the comment section below!  stay good. comments⇊

so, someone had asked me about virtual school and how it can be difficult for both teachers and students.  So for teachers, they need to find ways to get education through to the student without actually being there to help them.  Say a student needed assistance on a topic, the teacher would not know without looking at the grades which obviously they would do after class.  Then the teacher has no extra time to pull them off to the side to help them, because virtual learning takes up that much time.  Some schools, like mine, have extra periods during the day or once a week where a teacher can ask to pull a student in for extra help or for extra work to practice, and for me those are called "support sessions."  I find them to be really helpful to both student and teacher, because student can learn what they needed privately, and teacher can have extra help from a student with her teachings.  And likewise to the teacher, the student also feels lots of pressure...

hi it's me again.  Now some people will say that best friends are "cringy" or "childish," but what am I supposed to say?  I am an independent person usually and I can handle most things on my own, but when it comes to things like social lives and stuff, I personally have to have someone there.  Now with the pandemic you cannot hang out with these friends and it gets super hard.  One way I have found is the easiest is to call them EVERY DAY constantly, now sorry mom for wasting the phone bill, but I can't help it.  It's really hard to survive right now, mentally just as much as physically.  The vaccines have started to come out and people are going crazy inside, I already have honestly and I am creating this blog to post about what life is like for me.  Now my posts are short and simple, but if you talk to ANY of my friends you would know I could LITERALLY go on for HOURS UPON HOURS talking about one simple subject, mostly because I get sidetracked and ...

hey again, it's me.  So the COVID-19 virus... yeah.  It sucks.  Majorly.  See, I am a very anti-social person for the most part, so the friends that I make are my best friends.  If you are reading this in the far far future and you never went through the coronavirus pandemic and you haven't been taken over by robots, then imagine not seeing your best friend for (until the coronavirus pandemic ends, probably around) two years.  CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT?? Like, in all seriousness, don't be a Karen.  Wear your mask in public and stay isolated if you can.  But not having your friend there with you can get really tough.  Especially if you are an only child, like me.  You don't even have your sister or brother or non-binary sibling to talk to.  So I only have my parents to talk to, which is great and I am so lucky to have them because I know some people don't, but there isn't this level of connection that you can have with your bestie.  ...

hey, so you're probably here thinking: what is this blog, why am I here?   Well, to put it simply, I'm just here to talk.  To talk about anything I feel.  Life, emotions, things that happened, really, anything.  So I am here to say hello for now.  If you find my blog and like it, then feel free to stay.  If you hate me, feel free to leave.  I don't mind.  If you have questions, comment them... once I figure out how to turn that back on, hehe...  But anyways, I hope you enjoy yourself here, and know that I accept you for who you are, as long as you aren't some murderer or whatever.  You know what I mean.  I'll be heading off for now, and I'll come back soon.  And if you are looking for the reason of life... come discover with me.